pony express - 05

i am endlessly thanklessly thankful for your unbridled absence, always never here, king of creatures as helpless as i am.

i dream of a home we have together, the endless expanse of our front lawn. it’s just big enough for the both of us. some of the floorboards creak. we’re growing orange trees and we run laps around the house and we laugh like children. we do nothing, we revel in it.

i want the distance to remain the same. i want the dream to remain a dream. i don’t want that at all. i want the closeness to foster hatred. i want to touch and feel. i want to loathe and weep for what i’ve lost. for a dream that only half came true.

night after night i recall moments we never had.

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