went to a friend's graduation today, so i spent a decent amount of time out of the house. well, multiple friends graduated, but i mostly went for the person who gave me a ticket LOL. i will probably be even more… outside-of-the-house tomorrow since it's going to be mother's day. i had to wake up earlier than i'd like today, and i'm going to have to wake up even earlier tomorrow. sigh! what a weekend! 

watching my school's commencement kind of made me dread having to walk when it comes my turn to graduate. it really is just as boring as a high school graduation, if not more, since in uni, there's more students having to walk. well, at least they divide commencement into multiple days. if i prioritized my own, current feelings over my parents', i would definitely choose not to walk. but mom wants me to walk, of course, so that she can get photos and make memories of the occasion. i get where she's coming from, of course, but goddddd……. >_< i'm dreading it forreal…

i have been replaying pokemon mystery dungeon explorers of sky almost nonstop lately. i can't remember how far i got into the game as a kid, but now i've already finished the main quest and am gradually making my way through the post-game. didn't realize how many flaws this game had until i started replaying it, lol. it's still fun tho. 

missing my birth state a bit… though realistically, I don't think i could ever live there again. it's expensive and the culture is miserable. like, i never thought the “culture” would be something i considered for where to live, especially since i don't go anywhere or do anything, but apparently it is. and i'm not talking ethnic or national culture. it's something else, but i'm not sure how to word it. for a long time in my life, i wore some majorly rose-tinted glasses whenever i looked back at my birth state and thought about living there again. but, like, that place has always been like that. for, like, a couple of centuries now. it's so disappointing to grow up and Realize and Know.

i'm sure anyone reading this can probably infer where i'm talking about. it's probably obvious?

i mean, recently i've been considering moving close to it. even if it's just an impossible dream of mine (the rate at which my life is going now is definitely not steering me toward that goal).

good god i'm such a pessimist.